The Shift

I can feel it ... a shift in my consciousness. I am seeing the world around me with new, open eyes. I can see the subtleties and feel the vibrations of need. It is a transformation in progress, and one that has been a long time in the works. It is difficult for me to explain this higher state of consciousness that I am experiencing, this desire to reach out. It is complex and layered. My dad tells me that I am becoming self actualized.

Maslow describes self actualization as:
"What a man can be, he must be. This need we may call self-actualization…It refers to the desire for self-fulfillment, namely, to the tendency for him to become actualized in what he is potentially. This tendency might be phrased as the desire to become more and more what one is, to become everything that one is capable of becoming."

All I can say is that I am thoroughly enjoying this stage of my life. This has less to do with the fact that I am approaching 50 as it does with the fact that my active parenting years are gradually becoming less demanding and consuming. I have more time than ever to pause, reflect and seek out knowledge and understanding of the human condition and my global family. It is an inspirational place to be in my life.

During the years of career building and raising my children - years in which I felt completely consumed emotionally and physically - I was often frustrated by what seemed like a lack of time to fulfill my philanthropic interests. I lived by the mantra "all things in their time". You know - the notion that we can have it all, just not all at the same time. Well, my time has come and I feel free - in flight. I have alot to offer and I finally feel as though the mist is clearing and my greater purpose is unfolding before me.

I am becoming a better person. Becoming. Evolving. And for that, I am supremely grateful.